Through everything, through their speech, their body, the lights, the barn, the staging and memories of before they were born, Cray tries to express what they mean. Out of fear of anything new and indulgence in the safety of their own anxiety, they have confined themselves to a barn, the people they allow to come and leave only a part of their attempt to describe this experience. They have caved themselves in as they refuse to answer the question of whether they want to start healing, all the while struggling to contend with what they cannot articulate.